Monday, December 19, 2011

My boobs got my back (9dp5dt)

At my job, each day I work one of two shifts: one that starts at 6am, or one that starts at 7am (it's flexible, but I vanpool and we head in about that time). Today is my seventh day of work in a row. All with 6am-ers.

Let's first get this on the table that I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON. This fact cannot be rescued by caffeine. I have been known to be saved by the occasional donut or asiago cheese bagel with onion and chive cream cheese, but generally speaking, not. a. morning. person.

Now let's get THIS on the table. I frequently turn my alarm off in my sleep. About half the time, Dr Boy realizes it and gets me up (because he is a saint in this regard and i love him dearly), but the other half? Totally late for work. It's a problem.

Last week, between making holiday english toffee, going back to work after lots of resting, and not sleeping well due to stressing about implantation, I managed to turn my alarm clock off three mornings in a row. I'm talented, huh?

Today was destined to be one of those mornings. I didn't get more than four hours of sleep Saturday night, so I had a lot of catching up to do. I still stayed up too late, opening presents and hanging out with the in-laws. I talked to my mom a little before bed. I FINALLY got to talk to Dr Boy, just the two of us, about the serious possibility, near-certainty, that we were one of those couples that have to go through an IVF BFN. There were tears, sobs, and snot. I finally fell asleep HARD shortly after 11pm.

The alarm very rudely woke me up this morning as I was dreaming about something or other. I know I dreamt but can't for the life of me remember what about. I was sleeping on my back, and started to roll over to turn it off and

BAM!!! HOLY HELL BOOBS FEEL LIKE HOT POKERS ARE STABBING THEM!!! In reality it was only my sheets and mattress, but wow. That sure as hell woke me up. No late for work for me!

So thank you boobs, for having my back, and keeping me from accidentally turning my alarm clock off.

Also, for giving me just the slightest bit of hope that this cycle *may* have actually been successful. Of course, it's more likely that the pain is from the PIO shots we take in the evenings, but still. A girl can dream.

Other "maybe" type symptoms include crazy fiery heartburn from hell no matter what I eat, and crampy ute. Of course, that could be AF trying to bust her way through the PIO/Estradiol, but whatever. I have also had a crazy amount of CM in the last few days. Crazy amount. Grody. Grody. Grody.

I don't know. I'm sure I'm just still trying to cling to the false hope stage. (coincidentally the reason i didn't poas this am) Either way, we'll know when the phlebotomist sings tomorrow.


  1. Sore boobs...good sign? I hope so! I can't wait to hear (I'm sure you're feeling the same way.)

    I LOVED your comment! I am an absolute cow. Moo, moo, moo, moo. I'm currently hooked up to the milk machine but an hands-free thanks to the hands-free bra I crafted from an old sports bra. I look very Madonna right now.

  2. Yay, boobs! I'm still crossing my fingers that tomorrow will bring good news. Thinking of you!

  3. crampy ute and sore boobs both sound promising. I always had a crampy ute but it was like achey weird, not period crampy. Here's to hoping!

  4. Keeping my fingers crossed and praying for good news tomorrow.

  5. Oh man, I HATE those (false) symptoms. It's so hard to tell what you are really feeling and what is produced my the progesterone.
    Just hang in there until tomorrow and then you will know for sure.

  6. Hoping things are just burrowing in in your ute!

    BTW, put your alarm clock on your dresser for a few weeks, you will have to get out of bed to shut it off, voila! No more oversleeping.

  7. POI is the devil! Symptoms from the drugs vs pregnancy should be vastly different-don't they know we are going crazy over here???

  8. Wishing you the best tomorrow! Praying for that BFP!

  9. I'm hoping for the best for you tomorrow. Good luck, chica!

  10. Fingers crossed for tomorrow (today?)!
    I know my boobs hurt much more this cycle than I can remember for any others.


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