That's a doubling time of 36 hours.
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| I take a double-double, please! From BabyMed.com |
The MAJOR downside to today has been scheduling the first ultrasound. Originally, the clinic said I could come in at 5w6d, on Friday the 13th (which I consider an incredibly lucky day). When I called to make the appt today, the nurse wouldn't even consider it. She said that they'd "let" me come in early than they'd like, at 6w5d, Thursday the 19th. I, of course, lost my shit and started shaking/crying, because that's what I do best. I know there isn't much to see that early, but honestly, I'm already dying knowing I have to wait that long to find out how many and whether they're in the right spot. And to have gotten my hopes up, thinking I'm already three days into this next infernal TWW, only to have it turn into 17 days from now?
I'm gonna die.
But oh gee, to make it less difficult, they'll let me go in for some extra betas. Instead of Thursday, I'm supposed to go in on Friday for my third, and next Wed the 11th for a fourth.
That's not going to help. My betas still rose when I had my chemical, so that doesn't really help. I'm just mad that I was told one thing, then was switched to one week later.
Please, I know there's not much to see. All I wanted was to see a sac in the right spot, and to know how many sacs there are.
And don't hate me for bitching about the downfalls of being pregnant- I'm just hormonal and super frustrated, and so terribly anxious, and terrified this is all going to come crashing down. It's hard switching your mindset. And I'm scared.
I've been waiting for this post all day: FREAKING YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteGlad for the great beta!
ReplyDeleteSorry you have to wait so long for a first ultrasound. My clinic doesn't do them until at least 6 weeks. Any way you can use the fact that they first agree to 7/13?
You could also go to your ob or get a private scan from an external sonography place (like where you go to get 4D ultrasounds).
Hang in there! One day at a time.
Congratulations. Sincerely wishing you well over coming weeks. :)
ReplyDeleteUgh, the wait for the first u/s is almost a harder wait than the 2ww. My clinic waits until 7 weeks. Anyway, I'm so glad that you're talking about ultrasounds! Your betas are great!
ReplyDeleteYAY for doubling!!! hang in there during the next long wait. it is tough. distract yourself as much as possible and remind yourself that as far as you know at this moment, things are just as they should be. very exciting!!
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Phew! I've been checking here like crazy for the last 24 hours for an update and was starting to get a little worried. Congrats on the great doubling time! I'm sorry they wouldn't get you in sooner for an ultrasound :( I hope the next few weeks fly by!
ReplyDeleteYay! I say wait for that 6w5d ultrasound and TRY to relax (I KNOW, easier said than done, been there!) but that 5w whatever ultrasound will bring you very very little comfort, you'll feel better for like that day and then start to freak out again especially if it's too early to see anything and they don't even see the fetal pole, which is totally normal and doesn't mean a damn thing, but will completely freak you out.
ReplyDeleteYou gotta get used to the long waits as your 2WWs are about to turn into 4-5ww!!! The original 2ww is one of the easiest!
Ahhhhhhh (screaming)!!! I've been on vacation for a week and THIS is what I come back to? Amazing. I'm beyond thrilled for you. Congrats!
ReplyDeleteI'm SO sorry about the u/s. I agree with Lisa...the wait for the first u/s is crazy difficult. I had to wait 3 weeks from my 3rd beta (I was 8 weeks, 1 day along). Hang in there and CONGRATS again!!!!!!!!!
xoxo
Yeah, I've been looking for this post too - such great news! Sorry to hear about the scheduling difficulty, but I feel a very positive vibe that whenever you go in for your ultrasound you're going to get good news. Hang in there, and come up with some good coping strategies in case this turns into a 9-month wait! :-)
ReplyDeleteSorry you have to wait longer, that sucks! Stay positive and just try to keep yourself busy so the days fly by. Schedule lots of time with your friends, etc. Okay, I'm being selfish but I need a pedicure in the next week or so let's set one up with N as well! :)
ReplyDeleteHooray! I am so happy to read that your beta doubled! I'm not going to lie, the wait from the beta to that first ultrasound is a killer. I had my first one at 6w3d, and we were able to see both heartbeats and hear just one of them. As effing hard as it is, I think it is worth it to wait.
ReplyDeleteI know how hard this is.... but you want to make sure there is no doubt that you will see the heartbeat/s...
ReplyDeleteMy doctor told me to keep doing the betas until I got over 1000, because at that point they were confident it wasn't a chemical. So even if your betas rose for your chemical, maybe this one will rise high enough (and double fast enough) for you to feel more secure with just the blood tests to make it to 6w5d. I went in at 6w6d and saw those tiny flickering heartbeats - AMAZING. It's a long wait, but worth it!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm at an incredibly similar point in my journey- beta madness and waiting for ultrasound # 1. It is SUCh a difficult time, and such fear. I've already had one day of hitting the kleenex hard, its exhausting to have such hair-trigger emotions, but what can ya do?
ReplyDeleteThings look good, so that is all you can cling to. The silver lining about going in later is that there can be absolutely no change for ambiguity, and IF for any reason you get an ambiguous u/s at an earlier point, well, that is its own special brand of hell. Hoping for the very best news for you!
Congrats on a great 2nd beta!! I know that you can survive the wait!! Hang in there!!
ReplyDeleteYay!! Beyond happy for you! Keep your head up. I had to wait for 7w5d for first u/s and it was terrifying waiting, but watched betas and when puking begun I decided that it was a wonderfully good thing! <3
ReplyDeleteThat beta is wonderful news! Hang in there dear, I know it's a ways away, but there are some parts of this process that require more patience. It sucks, but you CAN do this.
ReplyDeleteIf it makes you feel any better, I didn't even get my first beta until 14dp5dt! That was a hard wait.
Congratulations!!
ReplyDeleteSorry for not being able to get scheduled on the original date they told you. (I love Friday the 13th's too.) My clinic wouldn't even consider letting me come in until 7 weeks and closer to 8 (I ended up being 7w5d). Plus, they don't do betas here. All I had was my pregnancy tests and missed period.
Take it easy and try to enjoy what you can for now! And let yourself be hormonal. It's only gotten worse for me. hahaha
The longer wait SUCKS. I'm so sorry, each day already feels like an eternity and then to add more of them...just torture. But as it tends to do, the time will pass and your U/S date will get here and Jay is right, the zone for ambiguity will have passed and you will hopefully be getting a much better look at your growing baby!
ReplyDeleteYeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! I'm so excited for you! I mentally punched that nurse for you. Waiting until 6w5d is unreasonable!
ReplyDeleteYesssss! I know the waiting is hard but it is actually better to wait a little bit for that u/s. I ended up pushing mine to 7w in order to make sure we saw a heartbeat! That few extra days will give you much more info. Try to keep busy girl.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!!
ReplyDeleteStopping by to say congrats! How absolutely awesome. Can't wait for your great ultrasound report!
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