I'm tired of hearing the usual:
- Wow! I thought you wanted children fairly early!
- Oh, are you guys waiting to have kids?
- Oooooh..... isn't it fun trying?
- I'm sure you'll get pregnant once you move- it's the stress!
- Well, you're still young!
- Just adopt! It makes you fertile!
- I guess you're just not irresponsible enough to get pregnant!
Every infertility blogger has a post like this, where you're Just. So. Tired. Of. It. So much else is going well right now (except for the whole Dr Boy Appendix Incident), I just wish so much that I could add this to the list. There was a going-away party at work today for a girl who's moving to a new field office. There were a couple of young children brought by stay-at-home spouses- a four-year-0ld with crazy red curls, and a 12-week-old with the softest tufts of blond hair and a vice-grip when you held his hand. I made my usual swoony face at both, and faced the usual barrage of questions. The ones that inevitably arise when you're childless and married for almost 5 years. I don't want to be THAT person, the one that is outwardly bitter. Because it's not that I'm NOT happy for the families at work- I'm thrilled! I don't want anyone to have to deal with this bullcrap. It just sometimes feels like my chest is trying to cave in. That's all.
I have an appt with a new OB/Gyn on April 2nd. New city + New insurance = Starting Over. Again. I can't take this "wait and see" approach any longer. I really just need something more to hang my hat on right now. I want to be Excited to poas. Not resigned.
Thanks for coming to my Pity Party. Hannah enjoyed herself at least. Of course, she got a treat for coming :)